MIA or…

It’s taken a lot of space and clarity to understand why I was unable to write the last couple of weeks. I’ve not had an unintentional break in the three years I’ve devoted myself to this letter, and I was surprised to find myself hitting the proverbial wall.

It’s no secret that I’m working hard to increase my digital footprint with the same integrity and care that I approach my practice. What hasn’t been so obvious, even to me, is the toll the production schedule has taken. Every available bit of free time is consumed by marketing which diverts energy away from passion projects of which this letter is intimately tied.

I felt an inner halting, like backing up with the parking brake engaged. Even as to-do lists proliferated, I couldn’t mobilize. I did spring cleaning, I reorganized my office but I couldn’t pull myself together.

I wasn’t Missing in Action. I was missing INACTION. I hadn’t factored in the effect an additional part time job’s worth of effort would take on me.

My body was thankfully on duty. Feelings of resistance and fatigue were her way of tugging at my sleeve and asking for a break.

I don’t know when it will happen, but I will take some time off this summer. I need to dream, spazz out with enthusiasm, create things and move. Digital work is important (I’ll speak more about this in upcoming letters) but so is centering, rest, and contemplation.

So please forgive my missing moments. Now that I understand the issues, I’m back in the saddle and thinking actively about what will refresh me and set me up for the fall.

If you are MIA, I hope you can invite INACTION into your summer. Nothing has to break to give yourself a break.